I cried tonight, sobbed even. Chest heaving and tears….all silent, so no one here could hear me. But my kitten did. She came and sat on my chest and licked my tears. I told her I was sorry I will never be able to give her a home. She just purred and nuzzled me with her little nose. I felt her soft fur and her warmth. I wanted to feel that for as long as possible. Because there will come a time when I have to let her go.

She deserves a good home where there is comfort, freedom to roam and play. Things i will probably never be able to give her. She’s so precious, she deserves the best. And I am starting to realize that I need to leave here and go somewhere. Don’t know where or how. But this place is not where I should be anymore. I need to be alone.